My life has been an emotional rollercoaster lately. I’ve spoken and posted about the good news, the ups in Cecilia’s battle with leukemia, but not so much about the downs.
The cancer reasserted itself in mid November. The heavy chemo drugs they put her on shut down her insulin production and she almost died on the day after Thanksgiving. That particular drug ran a short course and blood sugar levels could be managed the same as for a diabetic. When she was done with it her pancreas went back to normal functioning.
The rest of the heavy chemo continued through last week, to force her into remission. It did. She was over to our house two days last week. She was her normal bight, funny, cheerful self. Except for being a bit frail and bald. She did crafts with Grandma, played games and made delightful comments on anything that came up. Then the world changed.
This week that rollercoaster is making its slow suspenseful climb to the high peak. (Kachink….. Kachink….. Kachink…..)
Cecilia has been in the hospital since Friday undergoing a lot of chemotherapy and radiation treatments. The difference is that these are designed to destroy her bone marrow. On Friday her 18 month old brother Sylvio will be put under general anesthesia and as much marrow as his little body can spare will be harvested. Cecilia, also under general anesthesia, will be waiting to receive this. Sylvio is an almost unheard of 100% tissue match.
Long before this was scheduled, Riverfolk had scheduled a show at the Coffee Grounds this Friday evening. When these surgeries were scheduled last week, I considered canceling the show, but didn’t. I suppose this is my version of denial. In troubling times I seek out doses of normal. Everything will be fine and I can do the show as planned. At present I am still planning to do the show.
I was going to work as usual on Friday as well. “Nothing to do at the hospital but wait.” I’ve changed my mind. My child is putting her healthy, precious, baby at risk to save her very sick precious eight-year-old daughter. I’ll be there. Being there is important.
Kachink….. Kachink….. Kachink…..